The Comfort of Snow

Growing up, snow made me uneasy. The great snow of 1989 in North Carolina was particularly unsettling. I was incredibly young. My dad made me a slushy from the snow and a Coca-Cola. In the evening, he and my mother got into a nasty fight. My life changed for the worse during that snow storm.…

Relief

A week ago, the woman who brought me into this world died. We'd be estranged for nearly 8 years. People came out of the woodworks to find me. I didn't know how to feel aside from bitter and enraged. My feelings errupted at the end of last week. I was briefly consumed by the feelings…

Passive Aggressive Bullshit

"'Cause maybe some day I'll walk away and say 'You fucking disappoint me.'  Maybe we're better off this way." Passive -  A Perfect Circle Over the last few days people have come out of the woodworks in order to contact me.  People I haven't seen or heard from in two decades or more. While I can…

Happy Canadaversary

Exactly one year ago, my dog and I came to Canada. Mold in my home displaced me, so I ended up moving to be with my husband before we anticipated. How have I been the past year? Well let's see. I married my best friend, became a stepmother, and now have an awesome family. I…

Move On and Let Go

If you ever want to know how much you do or don't mean to someone, move. Since moving to Canada and marrying my husband, my life has been infinitely better. My stress levels have been immensely reduced. I'm healthy. Hell, I'm actually happy. I can't recall a period of time in my life prior to…